Medication, God and Christians. What is helpful? Part 1

He told me that he didn’t want to take the medication ‘Because, well, I know God can heal me so I am just waiting, praying and hoping. Isn’t that what we are meant to do?’

I have heard the sad story of God and medication too many times.

People getting all messed up with their thinking about God and illness and where medication fits in the whole scheme. They may be fine taking some medication for a chest infection or a headache but to take a medication for a mental illness?

Well, that just shows a complete lack of faith. Or does it? Continue reading


To Be Someone or To Do Something? That Really Is The Question

There are some people that I struggle to like, let alone love.

They are those that preen.

Those who seem so full of their own self importance, strut around like peacocks, and who want everyone to notice them.

You can see it so obviously with some, whilst with others it’s more like a hidden agenda that they aren’t even consciously aware of.

Enter into my reading zone is the book Ego is the Enemy by Ryan Holiday.

There is a story in it that I have been pondering over.  Continue reading


For This Pastor Depression Felt Like A Bulldozer Was Driven Over Him

I’m amazed how prevalent depression is today.

As a church minister I’ve sat with people trying to find a way through the haze, and I’m astounded at how it can affect the very young, the very successful and the very healthy, alongside those in whom we’d more likely expect it.

Depression is a killer. It can also sometimes be a teacher.

When my mind is idle, it can flash back to incidents in my past that make me wince. Continue reading


Is Taking A Spiritual Bypass Harming Your Mental Health?

It always happened.

After a relapse he would always say ‘I’ll never do that again, I’m trusting in Jesus to help me’.

Charged up by some sort of white knuckled determination and singing a few Jesus songs off he would go. Sure enough though his grit would grind out and he would crash back into the old behaviours.

You see he delighted in the feelings that flowed when in that place of escape.

Name your poison. Continue reading


52 Days to Better Mental Health

The change was barely noticeable unless you knew them well enough to know that this was significant. It was a small change in their behaviour, a problem that had plagued them for most of their life, but now it was gone.

They wanted a miracle, like the over night delivery of a new brain, but this was actually kind of better. Small yes, significant YES.

It was always sad for me when people would come to me and project their anger on to me about God not healing them in miraculous fashion of their addiction, personality disorder, anxiety, depression etc.. Continue reading


When Do You Feel Most ‘Fully Alive’?

When do you feel most fully alive?

That moment where you feel right on target, in the zone, on the peak of the wave. That time and place, even for the briefest of moments, where you know fully without any doubt that this is what you were meant for.

I want to be someone who is fully alive.

Wholeheartedly alive. Someone that others would say ‘He really knew how to dance a jig with Father, Son and Spirit’ Continue reading

Putting First Things First

Putting First Things First

‘If it wasn’t for sin I would be out of a job’.

This was a little quip I came up with when I was a pastor. The life of sinfulness and helping people through the mess kept me employed, gave me a living.

It does for many of us, especially those in the helping professions.

The other side of the coin was those who needed serious long term professional help yet could not access it due to its cost. I am thinking of those who needed counselling, psychotherapy etc but the fees were beyond the depth of their unemployed pockets. Continue reading

Shoulder to Shoulder The Fight is Real

Shoulder to Shoulder The Fight is Real

I didn’t realise life would be such a fight.

I thought life was meant to be like a gentle stroll along a flower strewn pathway, chatting with best friends. Well that’s what I was designed for wasn’t I?

In reality though I am in a fight, and you are too.

We are unfinished creatures– longing, reaching, stretching towards fulfillment. We express these desires for completion in prayer. Eugene Peterson

When I started this journey of inching my way through the book of Nehemiah I believed that I would find some great nuggets of truth to help rebuild myself, and others. Those ‘5 simple tips to a better life’ that would sell like cold lemonade on blistering hot day.

Haven’t found them and I don’t believe I will. Continue reading

What to Do When Fatigue Hits Your Heart

What to Do When Fatigue Hits Your Heart

Fatigue seems to sap out any reserve you might have to go on.

I remember visiting him in the Intensive Care Unit in our local hospital. After a huge overdose of pills he had woken up to discover he was still alive. His attempt at suicide had not succeeded.

His story was not unfamiliar. He had battled his addiction for years. Day after day. Then it got the better of him, and when his whole world crashed around him he decided to crash out of it.

Beneath what our culture calls psychological disorder is a soul crying for what only community can provide. Larry Crabb

This was years ago, but just the other day he shared with me his excitement at the news of becoming a grandfather.

Wonderful I thought, it was worth all the struggle of rebuild for the joy set before him of holding a new born baby in his arms.

Fatigue hits me too. Continue reading