I need space.
I could put this another way in that my ‘I’ needs space.
I need space away from all the pressures of life.
As I begin to write this I am sitting in my truck on the way to work. It is dark outside but I am alone and enjoying the opportunity to write. It’s a habit I have building into my life this year of writing 100 woulds everyday.
Life can be so busy, frantic and rushed that often we can just skip taking care of the ‘self’. Perhaps we under value our ‘self’, we havent yet learned to love and respect ourselves enough to draw a line in our busy schedules to just stop and take care of our needs.
This deficit leads to tiredness, fatigue, anger, and frustration with ourselves and others. We care for others but give little concern for our own needs.
We can also spiritualise this by believing that caring for others is more important than for ourselves. This is what Jesus would do, supposedly. I remember in Sunday School learning, what I would now call a hideous little song, ‘J.O.Y.’ sung to the tune of jingle bells. The J.O.Y. being an acronym for Jesus first, Yourself last and Others in between.
This is a song that can set one up for a life
of slavery to the needs of others.
Jesus never sang this song and not because he didn’t know the tune. Instead he said to love others as you love yourself. He also rested and took care of his needs so he could continue to minister. He ministered out of a cup replenished from spending self care time alone with God.
Years ago a psychologist Renier Greef showed me a model called ‘I, We, Work’.
‘I, We, Work’
Basically it is three equal sized circles joined together to form over lapping intersections. A circle representing time, energy, focus.
The ‘I’ being all about you. What you like and dislike. Who you are specifically. How you are different to everyone else. That you are special, unique, and have qualities that unique to you.
The ‘We’ are those relationships close to you. Family and friends.
The ‘Work’ is all those work activities you do. Paid, unpaid, housework, voluntary.
I would also add another circle around all three of the other circles to have God encompassing all areas of your life.
A balanced diagram would have all three circles equal in size.
Life isn’t that straight forward though is it. Typically either the ‘We’ or the ‘Work’ circles get over inflated with the ‘I’ circle being sucked dry.
If you are supporting someone close to you with an illness then the ‘We’ circle can expand and gain dominance with the other circles shrinking. With lots of work and activity in your life then this circle grows and the ‘I’ suffers.
If you have narcissistic tendencies then perhaps the ‘I’ circle swells and sucks the life out of the ‘We’ and ‘Work’.
The struggle point is in keeping the ‘I’ circle inflated appropriately and to not let the other areas of your life dominate or suck the life out of the ‘I’.
Its all about Love and Respect. Loving yourself and others, respecting yourself and others. Keeping your life in wholeness balance with an all encompassing God who loves and respects you.
Do you love and respect yourself enough to draw lines or boundaries
around what you can and cannot do?
The healthiest people I know are those that take care of their ‘I’. They keep the ‘We’ and the ‘Work’ in balance to their own needs. They don’t allow others to suck the life out of them. They have come to realise, often through hard lessons, that if you want to give to others then you have give to yourself first. That you can’t give from an empty cup.
Just because you ‘could’ doesn’t mean you ‘should’.
So they plan for healthy life giving ‘I’ activities. They place their own needs as being just as important as anyone elses. Here are a few examples
Whatever regenerates you, then it is special for you.
Don’t let others define what is special for you!
It doesn’t matter what others may think of it. If it fills your emotional ‘I’ tank then make plans to do it.
By now you are probably thinking of all the ‘but’s’.
But I don’t have enough time, but what will … think or do, but I’m not worthy of this.
This is called resistance. Its what you face into whenever you are going to make a change. Please kick your ‘but’s’ in the butt and make some plans to care for yourself. You may just setting a great example and role model to others that they need to take personal responsibility for themselves.
Here is what I want you to do.
Do one special activity for your ‘I’ today. Take at least 5 minutes to do something special just for you. It is special for you, no one else. What would your soul most enjoy? A walk, some time reading, smelling some flowers, putting on your favourite music that nobody else likes. For this moment its all about you and caring for that dry and thirsty soul.
Then come back and share in the comments what you did and how you found it.
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